
It is like when you feel deep hatred for someone but you cant help wanting to be with that person. It is a Love-Hate relationship. Being imitated by someone from childhood is really hard on the person being imitated. It feels like you are losing your identity and that causes hatred. (Trust me I know)

I think he wants to feel superior. "You took this from me, so I'm going to take that from you". Or "I'm going to make you suffer".
Maybe he wants to play with his heart while letting him know that he is being hated.
Those last 10 pages were so confusing he was a dick said he hated him then kisses him...
I'm not sure how to feel...