realistic but also my pea brain cannot comprehend

i think its bc i have never been in a love so complex and a one-sided relationship for so long, but there was a part of me saddened that hyunwoo didnt end up w subin but the love between subin and jun when i was reading made me feel so conflicted like “haha jun thats what you get!” but like how everyone feels, i feel so conflicted and angered about the “what ifs” like what if hyunwoo just said he loved subin, didnt lie to him and chased him after he left? what if hyunwoo went to see subin when he didnt show up at home after a couple of days instead of it slowly burn and linger... what if he stayed w subin under the umbrella instead of chasing yuna? my heart goes out for him, the lingering pain and taste of the “what ifs” but subin and jun was almost the <real love>, the kind that worries about the future and talks about settling in with each other. either way, this manga showed me about the wreck that love is and how love is just how giving to another one until you cant anymore and thats okay. ╥﹏╥