Am I actually going crazy

I think he didn't rape him but was really close to doing so,,, I can only hope that he didn't though :((( :/

I just think that since they’ve already tackled serious issues in society and high school and all that, if you’re going to put rape into your plot, at least go all the way with it- in terms of showing the serious consequences and impact that would have in real life. You can’t just blow past it, show some remorse then move on while still talking to each other- then NEVER mentioning it to your future lovers as ayeon doesn’t!! Yuri and jaerim also never talk about it after and in the side story jaerim actually gets annoyed that yuris still angry at ayeon about it. #－.－) like how could this possibly happen in real life?? It just doesn’t match with me to what the author seemed to be going for (If that’s actually what just happened, but unfortunately I don’t know what else could possibly have been physically hurting jaerim in that position, and by that I mean turned over on his belly under ayeon).

Honestly, I really hate that they pushed the issue aside instead of addressing it and taking any action in what happened. Jaerim has pride so maybe that's one of the reasons but I really don't know. For the back position, god, I can only hope that he was trying to do it but Jaerim was struggling and kept trying to flip over or something (｡•︿•｡) and that ayeon gripped him hard or something. I wish the author talked about what happened and gave jaerim and yuri justice

Sorry I know it’s been ages but I just reread this and realised it looks like I was kinda attacking ur reply with my super long one but I swear I didn’t mean it like that! I do agree with you, I just wanted to elaborate on my point ヾ(❀╹◡╹)ﾉ~
Also after reading the sequel a while back I think you were right and he didn’t actually rape him because ayeon mentions it being his first time and all that