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I dont get why you sgould be sarcastic with mental illness being part of the story. Its normal in stories tho.

it’s really not. Mental illnesses and disabilities are so so rare in BLs and it hurts to see that it’s being seen as just something that will move the plot along and not as a character that is very much in need of help. Chowon has no substance other than his mental illness. His whole character is based on the fact that he’s hurt so many people (and ohhh that’s bc of his mental illness). Sure, the author is taking chowon’s mental illness more seriously than other authors I’ve read. But still. As a mentally ill person, if you can’t draw or write characters with mental illnesses correctly, then don’t do it at all :/ anyway that’s just my current thought tbh I haven’t thought about it a lot. I’ll probably come back in a few days and think something different.

Im sorry but if its the case then let it be. Should he die then because of what he did? Or lose a limb, be blind or get more punishment? I myself am suffering from manic depression and adhd with bouts of MDD and MAD and i can relate how uncontrollable episodes are when it is untreated. If you think that he's not portraying someone with mental illness properly, then thats your description of your illness. Id rather be shown redemption for people with mental illness than think theyre the worst villains who existed. Chowon was spoiled and even his parents didnt even bother to check whats wrong with him and given he's rich, he can always run away with it hence no one bothered to even check if theres something wrong with him. Even dojun wasn't concerned when he went too much. Im smart, i win competitions, get top grades amd multiple scholarships. I am brash with my words and get obsessive with my actions resulting to hurting others and myself but do you know how many people actually voiced out that something is wrong with me? None. No one. Why? Because they'd rule it out as something else as being smart and know it all rather than actually thinking if there was something really wrong with me. I had friends drift away and got a few school warnings but they always ruled it out that the other who've ive hurt was the one being bad cos i was the top student. They all believed in me. I was lucky i got diagnosed early but it took me 3 suicide attempts to actually get checked and be diagnosed. Yes what chowon did was horrible and tbh with his actions, he should be in prison and he is lucky to even be roaming around freely but i can relate how he is and i am definitely scared if i didnt start therapy and medications, i might have ended as bad as he is.

Also to add, he is taking medications however that doesnt mean thats the end of it. It just wasnt showed explicitly but he is doing as what doctors prescribed

Okay I’ve thought about it more, and I agree. He’s an accurate representation of someone with mental illnesses (whatever those maybe from bpd to narcissism) and someone who has gone through severe trauma (which he has, chowon has lived a shitty life surrounded by shitty circumstances). I know that mental illnesses aren’t pretty and that healing isn’t linear. I KNOW that. I guess what I don’t like is that Chowon has no personality. There is nothing we know about him before his trauma. He is his trauma. And while that might be accurate for some people, I feel like I am more than my mental illness. I am funny, smart, patient, and even though I’ve made many mistakes and hurt many people, i deserve love. What we have from chowon: violin, maybe sarcasm (?). Maybe I’m missing something too, but there’s not much to chowon. And he definitely, DEFINITELY deserves healing and a second chance. Everyone does (and if you’ve seen other comments I’ve made on this bl then you’ll see I’m consistent with this thought). But I don’t want love to be a cure all, which is what I think this bl is heading to. That’s what I mean by mental illness being a plot device. Mentally ill to overdosing to pity to romantic relationship. Maybe I’ll be wrong. Maybe not. I don’t mean to hurt anyone or invalidate anyone with my thoughts though! I’m sorry if you felt hurt, that was not my intention and hopefully I’ve fixed that with this comment.

Okok i understand. I think what the story just missed is that chowons ongoing medication and doctor appointment. I do agree that love shouldnt what heals him and i think its just gonna ruin him having a romantic relationship when he's not yet stable. Just that i widh the author put more context with chowon than just simply an narcissist.