WHY!! can somebody please tell me WHY.. why did I see this manhwa !! i was so down and cru...

WHY!! can somebody please tell me WHY.. why did I see this manhwa !! i was so down and crushed for so long after reading the translated novel and now i have to find out that it has a manhua??!! and now all the memories came back i've never been hurt in my entire frickin existence , this and only this one DOES