I think it’s complicated. Yashiro was outraged when Doumeki suggested that he could physically over power him earlier in the scene. Having been a victim as a child for so long, he can’t tolerate feeling weak or pitied, ever again. The only way he feels like he can survive is to be independent and in control of everything- sexually, emotionally, financially, and in any kind of relationship he has with anyone. Yashiro loves Doumeki like no one else, but he considers that love to be a threat to his independence, in addition to the fact that he doesn’t consider himself to be worthy of that love. I think he’s overwhelmed between these unbridled feelings, and also hostility for the source.
THIS STORY IS SO FUCKED UPPPPPP I’m crying
My fucking aching heart... my baby ass stupid heart ╥﹏╥
But like why did he shoot him? I’m so confused