No way, dude! He totally needs to feel like what he's feeling inside sexually is ok and it seems to me that he really needs that push from a dominant person to do it. The bathroom scene is a perfect case in point. He feels like his sexuality is 'dirty' and by breaking down in the 'dirty' public toilet and fantasizing Kurose giving him what he needs shows how desperate his psyche is to accept that sex isn't 'disgusting'. Kurose pegged him from the beginning and that's why he let him leave the last step open.
I also think Kurose is being much, much gentler than the usual BL seme. I've read plenty of BL where the seme would have tied him up and had his way with him by the third chapter. Kurose is constantly pushing him then backing off and when Shirotani runs away, Kurose lets him. Shirotani is the one who keeps coming back for more. He wants the D so bad and Kurose knows it!
Well explained! It's so fucking true. Exactly what I'm thinking about the characters here and Shirotani's situation.
I understand your point and the need for a push so thay he can accept himself more.. but the way kurose said he want to defile him and mess him is too mean for someone like shirotani with that much issues already .. like he cant be compared to other semes because hes gotta be gentle with sucha special case especially since hes supposedly a therapist, he must be very understanding and patient (which I feel he should be even more) because shirotani is a patient that needs proper care and treatment rather than twisting and screwing him in the head
Kurose is an ideal for Shirotani, a life model if you will, for Shirotani to feed off of his example. When Kurose, a person who Shirotani admires, says he wants to defile him, e.g. make him dirty, it's subconsciously instilling the idea that being sexually 'dirty' is something natural to feel. Or rather, sexual feelings are natural and not 'dirty' in the sense that it is 'disgusting', but an aspect of being sexual.
Do you feel dirty reading BL? What if you did in the sense that it was a disgusting thing no one should ever read? Now what if someone you became close to said it was perfectly ok for you to love BL, "come on, try it.", "I wanna read BL with you", "I wanna corrupt your mind until you're as dirty as I am." Then, you grappled with yourself until you decided in your own mind that reading gay, smutty comics was just fine and you weren't going to die from disgust from liking that. Would you feel that being 'dirty' was ok?
I see your point, and I hope thats just how its is.. well for me reading yaoi isnt disgusting, its more like fun and pleasure .. and I dont have a problem with being dirty or perverted.. basically im just worried about shirotani, ive developed feelings of care and safety for him and I dont want him to see him being hurt, though of course I want him to get rid of his problem and be fine with himself and others.. we'll see how it turns out to be
Hear hear! I hope it all works out well, too
I feel like kuroske kun is too much for shirotani.. I feel so bad for shirotani I juat want him to find someone to be nice to him.. its like hes goin through a second great trauma in his life ... the poor soul I feel like he cant take it and I wanna cry with him because he seems to be in such pain (emotionally/psychologically/mentally) ... im all about sadism and maschosim and stuff but when it comes go shirotani its a stop, and it seems its gonna be even more dark and twisted its heartbreaking （￣へ￣）