i'm neck deep in 19 days feels

okay so i'm just gonna humor myself here by saying i'm pretty sure when Jian Yi said "if i-" maybe he was trying to say like "if i said i liked you would you be mad?" kinda thing idk something like that but he couldn't find the confidence or didn't want to potentially ruin the nice day since it was a really special day. Kinda reminds me back in chapter 100 when Jian Yi told the girl he envied how she had the courage to confess to the one she liked. And jesus don't even get me started on Zhan Zheng Xi's "i'll wait". basically rip me