sungha?? possibly gay?? internalized homophobia!?!?!?!!

homies is it gay to mentally and physically torment your best friend by forcing them into an abusive relationship and raping them constantly after he tells you he likes you so you beat him up everyday and tell him he's disgusting for liking him and then when he finally takes revenge you can't help but fight through sudden death and start getting possessive overing wanting him back?? be honest!!