i totally feel u. banana fish broke me and until now whenever i see things related to it, i get sad again :{
finally, someone who understands !! if only the library staff didn't give ash the freedom to sleep in the library and woke him up, she couldve brought him to the hospital and help him but he looked so peaceful she let him sleep im fucking crying im not okay i just hope hes happy wherever he is T__T one more thing is that golzine's death isnt satisfying !!!!!!!! they shouldve had eiji pole vault his way up golzine's ass and shove sum banana fish in there >:( im fucking pissed but devastated at the same time
i also feel like the reason he chose to finish reading eiji's letter in the libtrary than going to the hospital is bc he knew things wouldnt end that easily even after going to japan w eiji cus he has a lot of trauma and things to move on from plus i think it was just too heavy and too much for him to handle that he just wanted to take a rest and escape from everything uuuugghhh i dont know anymore im soooo broken. how did a fictional character influence me this much
IKRR i’m also sad the librarian didn’t wake him up but i totally understand why and he looked so peaceful :(( but eiji said he’d be with him whenever and wherever and it was the sweetest thing ever
ive been crying for abt a month bc of banana fish. ash didnt deserve any of those. i know he shoulve gone to the hospital instead of the library but i think he deserved to rest. i think, afterall, he still has the mindset that he brings danger to eiji and that he is a bad guy. WHICH mAKES ME EVEN MORE SAD. help i cant take it anymore