Don't hate me but..

I'm conflicted. I'm happy they got their happy ending but everything feels off? Am I the only one who didn't like the story? There was nothing "real" or relatable" in my opinion. Just unnecessary drama and heartache.

!!! SPOILERS AHEAD !!!

First of all the fact that they moved in together after 2 months of knowing each other is mind boggling to me but I understand love doesn't have a time limit for some people.

Secondly tom did cheat on his boyfriend. He admitted himself he got hard etc etc. He was not at fault for the attempted rape cause irl and in yaoi world we don't shame rape survivors. However he literally felt some sort of way for another dude? Again not referring to the rape situation but prior to that. Was he developing feelings? Was he bored? Pent up? Don't know but I felt icky reading through some chapters.

Thirdly this was so flat and underwhelming. The only thing that kept their relationship was sex. I love sex scenes but even I got bored. There wasn't any substantial connection or anything. Maybe I'm the only one who felt that way but I saw nothing, no development or communication at all. They will continue to have problems in the future I'm sure. Basically nothing got solved.

Lastly maybe that wasn't the author's intention but I felt like we were supposed to feel sorry for the rapist? I have 0 sympathy/empathy or anything else for the motherfucker. He didn't even feel sorry for what he did he just felt sad for himself. And Tom kept trying to approach him? And be kind to him? Ew.

I genuinely feel so disappointed I was expecting so much from reading the comments. Everything felt flat and one dimensional to me.

Loved the art, plot had potential it just never hit the spot for me. Looking forward to reading more from this author though.

Let me know if I'm not the only one who felt that way?

Pls no hate - just love, thank you.
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