Chapter 58

96neko October 30, 2020 3:39 pm

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Ok so people are saying they didn’t really understand the need for a sex scene, especially when Seungho is supposed to be really sick, but I actually quite like it’s placement. It does seem kind of like a “fillery” chapter but I think it’s significant to how much Seungho has changed as a person when it comes to how he approaches intimacy. Before, with his partners, there really was no connection beyond just using each other for sex, and it was most definitely the case with Nakyum, where he only really sought to use him to reach satisfaction. But in this chapter, now that he realizes how deeply he feels for Nakyum, the sex is portrayed as completely different. He actually looks Nakyum in the eye, kisses him a lot more, and holds his hand during it all. But most importantly, he TALKS to Nakyum. He tells him how much he feels for him, and admits that the attraction and love he holds has ruined him. It’s saying a lot to me that he’s this vulnerable in front of someone that he deemed a lesser human 30 chapters or so ago. Sex is Seunghos primary form of affection, his “love language” so to speak. He’s obviously never been one for romantics, so he’s trying as best he can to communicate to Nakyum that he is special using the only form of intimacy he’s accustomed to.

Responses
    vibes October 30, 2020 3:44 pm

    .....who on earth with any common sense would be complaining about sex in a Yaoi?

    ali October 30, 2020 3:45 pm

    what a nice way of putting it actually. though i still do think it was somewhat a filler chapter, i don't believe the sex scenes were unnecessary. for someone like seungho, that's the only way he can get his feelings across.

    96neko October 30, 2020 3:51 pm
    what a nice way of putting it actually. though i still do think it was somewhat a filler chapter, i don't believe the sex scenes were unnecessary. for someone like seungho, that's the only way he can get his fe... ali

    I just think it was meant to be significant given that it’s been almost 10 chapters since they’ve had sex and within that span so much has happened to their relationship. I mean right after chapter 50 seungho literally stopped touching and talking to Nakyum because he was so deathly afraid of loving him. But now we’ve come full circle and Seungho is literally telling Nakyum he wishes he loved him back. It’s super nice in perspective of the whole story. (▰˘◡˘▰)

    ali October 30, 2020 4:00 pm
    I just think it was meant to be significant given that it’s been almost 10 chapters since they’ve had sex and within that span so much has happened to their relationship. I mean right after chapter 50 seung... 96neko

    you're right, it is an interesting development for them. once again you've changed my perspective

    really excited to see how nakyum would take this confession haha

    jana_83 October 30, 2020 4:03 pm

    Meh. I'm wondering if fever will be used as an excuse and he'll do some back tracking. I don't want to take it as growth until he does/says the things in sound state of mind.

    ali October 30, 2020 4:09 pm
    Meh. I'm wondering if fever will be used as an excuse and he'll do some back tracking. I don't want to take it as growth until he does/says the things in sound state of mind. jana_83

    wait you bring up a good point. wonder how much of an influence this fever has on his actions?

    moonchild October 30, 2020 4:15 pm

    Thank you for this. The s€x in this latest update may have felt "fillery" but given the author's penchant for symbolism and details, i believe she wanted to show more than what words can explain in this episode, most especially the changes in Seungho (no matter how big or subtle). I think your analysis is super spot on. Byeondck so far has never included anything useless in her drawings, at least as far as i can interpret (or hope for)

    96neko October 30, 2020 4:46 pm
    Meh. I'm wondering if fever will be used as an excuse and he'll do some back tracking. I don't want to take it as growth until he does/says the things in sound state of mind. jana_83

    That is true. We have yet to see Seungho day these things fully coherent and healthy. I’m wondering if that’s intentional for more angst

    jana_83 October 30, 2020 5:57 pm
    That is true. We have yet to see Seungho day these things fully coherent and healthy. I’m wondering if that’s intentional for more angst 96neko

    I can also easily see aithor using it as a way to have Nakyum get all excited and smushy faced just to be told of and heartbroken again. I want to see how/of they bring back and use the teacher in the future. Don't forget, he has a plan.

    jana_83 October 30, 2020 5:58 pm
    I can also easily see aithor using it as a way to have Nakyum get all excited and smushy faced just to be told of and heartbroken again. I want to see how/of they bring back and use the teacher in the future. ... jana_83

    *told off
    *how/if