while i understand what you are saying the thing is, unfortunately , fear is something not logical and can make you act completely different than what you really want . Or the opposite .
In Ewon's case he is so traumatised by his mother abandoment that inside he thinks that the boss will do the same. So he hasnt let himself trully be immersed in the relationship like the boss is. That is why this situation had to happen so he can let go of all the deep rooted doubts and trully believe that the boss will allways be there for him.
Yes I do understand that his wounds were still deep bcoz of what his mother did and maybe that's why he had problem expressing his emotions but like he cannot expect mookyul to compromise everytime?(And no I'm not talking about his sister situation here) I feel like while we saw mookyul's feeling developing towards Ewon, we didn't get the same development for Ewon. In the last chp he said to his sis that "mookyul has done so much for him that he cannot leave him" which for me felt like he is only with mookyul bcoz of guilt?( like mookyul did so much for him but ewon never got chance to return the favour) hence I'm still confuse if Ewon's feeling for mookyul should be consider as love?
I'm sry for such a long ans
I think Ewon loves Mookyul, but not necessarily in the same sense Mookyul loves him, but more like he finds Mookyul attractive and knows that Mookyul loves him wholeheartedly so he doesn't have to worry about ever being let go (like his mom or his ex did). However, he's always trying to push the limits on Mookyul. When Mookyul finally told Ewon to be with his family, as if he's given up on him, Ewon finally panicked because his security is no longer there, so he now tries to get back with Mookyul.
To Mookyul, Ewon is his everything, but to Ewon, Mookyul is the person he wants to spend the rest of his life with. They love each other, but their love is different.
Hm I agree with your first paragraph. Mookyul was his safety blanket. Even in that early chap where they couldn't have sex bcoz of Ewon's job, he didn't thought about mookyul until mookyul himself started avoiding him(obv that was his plan)and we got to see Ewon panic bcoz he thought maybe mookyul lost interest in him. I do think Ewon liked mookyul but i just felt like it would have been better if we had got more of Ewon's feeling development for Mookyul considering he wasn't the expressive one in their relationship.I would have loved to know when he started taking his feelings for mookyul seriously.
I feel like Ewon doesn't love Mookyul as much as Mookyul does. Ik their relationship isn't rose and unicorn at all but boy acts so weird whenever mookyul even touches him to the point that I started questioning if he even wanted to be with mookyul in the first place. Boy literally is ready to throw him whenever he gets a chance. Like here in this whole sister situation instead of always expecting mookyul to compromise he could have found a middle ground? I always find myself re-reading this manga bcoz I love the characters and the art but I'm still confuse about Ewon's feeling towards Mookyul.