Sometimes I wonder if yall even read thru the whole manga.. It's obviously due to his trauma.. His bff is like his safe house that he has created to escape his trauma.. It's like an imprint in his mind that only him is in a position to save him cos he was the last person to see him before he got raped by their teach and the person who kept calling his phone. He has always had a notion in his head that if he could just pick the call, if he could reach Kashiwa (his bff) then he'd be saved.. That's what trauma does to people.. It messes with the mind yknow.. Dang.. Not yall victim blaming fr..
Wait its been a while since I read this but where did I blame him for being a rape victim ? Where did I blame him cause he had a trauma ? Man yall come at me and suddenly twisting my wkrds lmaaao. My issue is how hes downplaying that kiss even after the seme saw him. He didnt even apologize afterwards and asked his bff to fuck instead lmafao. If to you a trauma (as your reasoning) can be used to justify cheating (and giving mixed ideas) then we have nothing more to discuss.
This is so dramatic and the plot is all over the place. The uke just had to go there and cheat before last chapters really leave a bad taste.