Nakyum's feelings

"... because the way you look at him is not the way you look at me... I am filled with rage. I don't know why"..
Dude never knew what it is to feel jealousy until now.
Anyway, Nakyum's feeling for Inhun are not what they used to be. That scene where he tells the servant to throw away the drawing as the closure.
I wish Seungho saw the way that Nakyum is watching him while he sleeps.
Nakyum doesn't hate Seungho anymore. He said as much :
"I used to hate him ... but now he's the one I think of when I touch myself'.
This was the scene where NK is saying that he doesn't think of running away again. He first says that he doesn't have anywhere to go. Then he says that staying there is not so bad, he can paint ... and then pauses and says ... and ... and he is blushing and the next scene is he is jerking off and saying the thing above. So, by now, Seungho is also one of the reasons why Nakyum is staying.
Before the peeps start crunching their pearls and screaming 'Stockholm Syndrome' and discard the character's personality, a reminder:
- Nakyum's attraction for Seungho was established at the very beginning of the story, The scenes where they were locked in a gaze during the painting sessions is canon and written. Seungho even threw one of his whores out when he complained about it. The same one who went to tell Jihwa that Seungho and Nakyum were doing this. Seungho also is the sexual awakening on Nakyum -- before the rape. He was having erotic dreams and Seungho lust and power is not that hard to understand the allure for an innocent repressed young man like Nakyum
- Nakyum's core trait is his kindness and pure heart. Regardless of any other feelings, Nakyum can't truly hate anyone, even more if the person starts treating him better. We see this time and time again with Nakyum along the story and not only with Nakyum. He is forgiving and can't hold hate or grudge so Nakyum first sympathizing with Seungho, forgiving him is pretty much in character. Thank Goodness the author keeps the character as it is instead of writing him as something else just because the readers want to project what they would do.
- Nakyum, despite his years of infatuation with Inhun is just as inexperienced in love as Seungho. On top of it, because of what Inhun said about he being a prostitute, and then Seungho being an idiot who tries to push NK's away when he reaches out, Nakyum may very well confuse feelings of care and love for someone with lust. Since Nakyum is so naïve and innocent, he usually is much more open and honest with Seungho that the other way around. These are the words Nakyum says to a blushing Seungho, before holding his face, licking his mouth for a kiss and then tenderly kissing his Lord :

"You asked me why I became so obedient...whenever our EYES meet my lord, my HEART starts racing and my body feels hot. And DESPITE myself, I think about you coming inside me, deep inside. When you press against that place inside me my Lord, when you lick my body, and bite me, kiss me, I also feel good. "

In any other Yaoi story, this would be a full blown confession so no wonder Seungho is at lost with words and panics ( and then starts his inner dialogue about how he decided to only live for his body)

Nakyum is talking about eyes meeting and heart pounding and the feeling of sex with someone you want ... the point is that Nakyum thinks this is lust and because he is born to be a prostitute when in fact he is feeling already what it is to be falling in love.