My heart goes to both Bena and Ichi (don't read if you haven't gone to ch.5)

I've seen some comments wondering why Ichi is... the way that he is. I feel like he's not able to forgive himself for what has happened to his brother, as if, his existence is there for Fumi because while he thinks that Fumi is weak and needs protection, Ichi thinks that Fumi is the better brother.
Something along the lines of: "He should be the one living right now, I am not worthy to be happy because I have failed Fumi. And the only way I can atone for this horrible mistake that is my life and my choices I have to torture myself by mourning for him everyday and living the hell life I was born to, until the day I die. Even that wouldn't be enough, but it is a good start."
Bena is there trying to save Ichi from himself, even Nao is concerned about how low Ichi thinks of himself.
I hope Bena can save Ichi, because that is the only way Bena can be saved (from what is lurking in his head and past).

On a happier note, baby boy Bena is so big now! Look at him grow! Splendid young man! <3