little swan is sooo lucky

SALSHII September 20, 2020 1:47 pm

I actually cried when the phonecall with his father happened. Right now, I am studying pharmacy as an eldest daughter of the family. However, the school I attended does not come cheap. At first, they were supportive at me but 1 year after , they were complaining at me for because of the expenses. Now that I am third year, it had gotten worse when I flunked a subject (just because the teacher didnt like me) and lost my opportunity for latin honors. I also feel like they regret sending me there. They also kept comparing me to other people too. I know that hurting me is not their intention but that is what is happening. I feel like a burden in the family. I feel like i should not fail because i am the eldest but I did anyway. I felt like it was the end of the world for me as the wound in my heart keep on reopening. I'm actually crying while writing this.

I know it doesnt relate to the story at all but it just triggered my sadness again. I yearn to have parents like he does. And if you have parents like him, cherish them for me please. You don't know how lucky you are. ╥﹏╥

Responses
    haventaki September 20, 2020 1:55 pm

    aww internet hug for you <3 stay strong ily!!

    applepi September 20, 2020 1:59 pm

    Soo I wish you could reach your goal/dreams in life! I wish you the best!!
    I dont know if that helps but that's the only thing I can do rn so yah I hope your reach your goals in life!!

    Philippians 4:13 I Can Do All Things Through Christ Who Strengthens Me

    SALSHII September 20, 2020 2:00 pm
    aww internet hug for you <3 stay strong ily!! haventaki

    Thank you. I just had a strong surge of emotion when I saw how supportive his parents are. Thank you for the internet hug. Made me feel so much better ╥﹏╥

    Nebu-Nebu September 21, 2020 3:50 am

    Hi there, I m also in a quite close situation as yours. I m the 1st child too, also in my 3rd year of Dentistry student. My school aint cheap either also my parents complain too. But yea, I can only take their complains and just keep it inside my heart cuz I know they didnt mean anything bad. I also failed many subject.. the problem was not only cuz of the lecturers but in my smoll brain too. And yes, my parents also complain bout that and I said 'even the smartest friend in class also have 1 or 2 failed subject' its not like I want to blame anyone but I just want them to know that I m trying my best surviving in becoming the future dentist and wish for them to keep supporting me.

    Dont feel like you re a burden to the family dear, maybe a heart to heart talk with your parents will help. Dont feel pressured by the failure. Human make mistakes. That doesnt mean we as the eldest child should be perfect.
    Sorry if I made a mistake or even triggering someone. I just wanna share my feelings too ><

    SALSHII September 21, 2020 12:17 pm
    Soo I wish you could reach your goal/dreams in life! I wish you the best!! I dont know if that helps but that's the only thing I can do rn so yah I hope your reach your goals in life!! Philippians 4:13 I Can Do... applepi

    thank you apple pi! The verse really helped :)

    SALSHII September 21, 2020 12:18 pm
    Hi there, I m also in a quite close situation as yours. I m the 1st child too, also in my 3rd year of Dentistry student. My school aint cheap either also my parents complain too. But yea, I can only take their ... Nebu-Nebu

    uwaahhhhh same! Lets just stay strong @nebu-nebu! ╥﹏╥

    applepi September 21, 2020 2:35 pm
    thank you apple pi! The verse really helped :) SALSHII

    Your welcome!! (⌒▽⌒)

    Nebu-Nebu September 21, 2020 2:51 pm
    uwaahhhhh same! Lets just stay strong @nebu-nebu! ╥﹏╥ SALSHII

    Yeshh ヾ(❀╹◡╹)ノ~ 1st child need to be strong XD