why are you hurting and scared? i think you need to take a relaxing bath, dude if the smallest things are capable of ruining you mentally.
yes writing helps a lot. But the only problem is that it makes things harder for me to forget. All these years ive dealt with it by simply waiting for it fade away from my memory. But that takes a lot of time. In the mean time im not able to concentrate on anything else. I dont have a distraction to rely on this time, since the most effective distraction of my life is the reason why im hurt. So i have no other choice than to wait for time to heal it.
i know i dont have a live outside my little comfort zone. you may think I'm overreacting but actually even the smallest things are capable of ruining me mentally. Im an overthinker, there's nothing i can do about this. I would die to change this within myself. Trust me its hurting me more than i show. Since we cant go out and the whole day im all by myself, its really hard to keep my head off those things. When i get emotionally attached to something it gets almost impossible for me to forget about it. But this time i want to get out of this. its messing me up. I dont know how i can but i want to. I feel like im the only one who is suffering cause others didnt lose what i did. They wont regret it like me. So please understand my pain. Im not exaggerating it, im just hurt and scared.