can someone recommend me manga similar to this please 😭😭😭😭🙏

Maybe give Life senjou no bokura a try? It's not exactly the same, but I cried just as much (T_T)
http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/life_senjou_no_bokura/

I already read that one but thanks i found one the title is smells like green spirit it was preety realistic and make my eyeballs dried out (﹏)

Ahhh yes, it's one of my favorite!

Blue flag ;u;