Same goes for me.. I did feel sympathetic bcz of his struggle financially and with raising Cecil and all,, but didn't really understand Ryan's story and about his conflict with Glenn and that 'Perfection' movie thing.. would be great if anyone can help me with understanding it
and I wanna know more about Chang's side of the story.. I hate (not just dislike) his actions, I dislike the 'I bully you bcz I like you' type but his actions went too far even for that.. but in my heart I somehow want him to be happy and to be given a second chance at love, also for him to change his attitude towards his potential love interest..
I got your point. I'm also quiet confused and admit to not fully understand the conflict between Glenn and Ryan. But I think it all began in that film "Perfection". From what i understood, Ryan was uncomfortable as it looks like he was already a victim of raped (from his past maybe, idk). Or maybe he didn't really like to be part in the porn industry, just like Ed he felt like he had no choice since he was raising a kid and in need of money. And that film made him feel worse as there is one chapter where he mentioned that Mcqueen's entertainment were the same as others 'cause they're all rapist holding a camera (sort of that).
I think the film is about rape showing Christoph's pov (idk if the actor was Glenn since he looks diff and the image isn't clear) and his victims. And Ryan played as the victim and there is this one chapter when Ed watching the film and you can see Ryan's expression was hurt, dunno if it's just acting or not.
I like all the characters but i am more attached to Chang and Ryan. I hoped the author gave them more panels as i want to understand their characters more, specially Chang. I dislike his actions but get to understand him in the end. He was neglected and left alone as his parents died in an accident. I think that makes him 'cruel'. Same goes with Ryan, i think he is the real "victim" of this story. I'm confused if he's really gay since i can't remember which part he mention about his orientation (dont get me wrong i think i just skipped it by accident). There are porn actors who weren't really gay or so they are labeled as gay-for-pay. Even though Glenn aplogized to him, for me it's not always easy to just moved on and forgive. I wished to see more of them :)