Yooo, i need help and imma vent lol

t h v n d r ༄ s t v r m August 29, 2020 2:55 pm

The characters were a couple but the girl died by trying to rescue a pregnant woman or a child from falling down the stairs. But, she reincarnated and her bf was still alive. She always hangs out at his house and basically grew up visiting and helping him. Then, she has to move (I think for college) and confesses to him but I think he’s not ready and he hesitates bcos of their age difference, he also doesn’t want to hold her back. And, he waits for her. I think the title was her name or something like that. She also visited her past family, her younger brother’s a teacher.
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. lmao i want to get it out, it’s long so read only if u want
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So.... I read nii chan last week (I wasn’t able to vent cos I kept thinking twice if I should) and idk how I got there and how the hell I even finished that. At first, after reading, I was like ok and I can’t feel anything. And it made me question if I was really ok, but I can’t sleep for some reason that night. I woke up and I have online class (good thing it was asynchronous), I found myself staring into oblivion and thinking about it, the last three panels just messes me up bro, when he was walking and thinking to himself. Like, it was that, that kept flashing in my mind. As well as the part where Kei as a child saying they made love properly, and the image of the panel where he’s on top of that old man is so vivid. BUT I GUESS IT WAS EVERYTHING. EVERYTHING WAS STILL FRESH AND VIVID. AND I GUESS I WASNT OK . I was disturbed and horrified of the whole thing, every second of reading it was dreadful but I guess I wanted to see the end. And I notice every single detail, the expression, the eyes, the words, the actions, it messes me up. AND WHAT MESSES ME UP MORE IS THAT THERE IS A REALITY TO IT. It happens, the thought that it happens kills me. The only thing that distracted me from it was my studies, I do studying so much it took my mind out of that somehow.

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    t h v n d r ༄ s t v r m August 29, 2020 3:00 pm

    Typing that out makes me feel light lo. Also, recommended me mangas for healing (▰˘◡˘▰). (if u read that too, recc me what helped u lol). I’m usually pretty tough, but that one,, chile

    Kyatto August 29, 2020 3:28 pm

    I had that too with ‘An Easy Target’, I read it till the end since I just couldn’t stop. I was just silently staring at the wall and I legit couldn’t read any stories for a while since I was just so blank. I would recommend you do something else, like watching anime or something but I recommend these if you need some healing stuff.

    http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/then_i_ll_go_first/

    http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/futari_hyakkei_kaze_no_owari_haru_no_hajimari/

    http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/to_give/

    http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/kimi_ga_terasu_koi_no_hikari/

    HADEON August 29, 2020 3:40 pm
    Typing that out makes me feel light lo. Also, recommended me mangas for healing (▰˘◡˘▰). (if u read that too, recc me what helped u lol). I’m usually pretty tough, but that one,, chile t h v n d r ༄ s t v r m

    http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/hananoi_kun_to_koi_no_yamai/ cuteness overload uwu btw whats the name of that story? Im very curious ●◡●

    t h v n d r ༄ s t v r m August 29, 2020 3:51 pm
    http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/hajimari_no_niina/ vriska

    Thank you kind soul ٩(๑❛ᴗ❛๑)۶ ♡

    t h v n d r ༄ s t v r m August 29, 2020 3:57 pm
    I had that too with ‘An Easy Target’, I read it till the end since I just couldn’t stop. I was just silently staring at the wall and I legit couldn’t read any stories for a while since I was just so bla... Kyatto

    Yeess, I was like that for two days goodness. It makes it hard to read cos somehow your brain relates it to the one you’re currently reading. Anyways, most importantly, thank youu so much for these recs love, i send my love to you ヾ(❀╹◡╹)ノ~

    t h v n d r ༄ s t v r m August 29, 2020 4:07 pm
    http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/hananoi_kun_to_koi_no_yamai/ cuteness overload uwu btw whats the name of that story? Im very curious ●◡● HADEON

    Thank you for this love, will surely read it ♡ ♡ looks vc cute
    Chile I don’t want it to scar you but I don’t want to be rude and not give it to you, it’s called “Nii-Chan (harada)”. You can just search, sorry that I can’t provide the link ╥﹏╥ I just can’t get near it for now, lol. Anyways, I’m not sure if you have heard of it tho, but imma still warn you bout it. I guess ur a tough cookie, but if ever vent it out (๑•ㅂ•)و✧

    HADEON August 30, 2020 6:42 am
    Thank you for this love, will surely read it ♡ ♡ looks vc cuteChile I don’t want it to scar you but I don’t want to be rude and not give it to you, it’s called “Nii-Chan (harada)”. You can just se... t h v n d r ༄ s t v r m

    Howey sheet so it was from harada lolol thank you and for the warning as well!! I'm now mentally prepared and gonna take this hell of a ride

    t h v n d r ༄ s t v r m August 30, 2020 1:31 pm
    Howey sheet so it was from harada lolol thank you and for the warning as well!! I'm now mentally prepared and gonna take this hell of a ride HADEON

    Be well love (/´༎ Д ༎`)/ , I send my regards to you. Talk to me if u want or need ☆