Rant

You don't know how much I needed a story like this one. I (like a lot of other people) started to read this story thinking it was BL (who reads descriptions? they ruin everything), and you know, it's been a long time since I kinda stopped relating to shoujo mangas. The girls weren't like me, and their love stories always seem so unrealistic. Like they love each other just because they're a boy and a girl? So beautiful, so smart, and so shallow.

It's the first time I can relate to a FL? I'm not exactly like her, and yes, this _is_ fiction, but it totally gives me hope that I, too, can find someone who likes me for who I am? I'm pretty much asexual (I probably like sex, I'm just not physically attracted to people - everyone just looks average), and my self-hatred destroys every chance I get to find someone to love, but at this point of my life, I'm still heteromantic, and I'm still hopeful that I will find love one day.

And I might be a manly woman, that doesn't mean I'm a lesbian and it doesn't mean that I want to become a man. I've had long hair my whole life and cutting it short (even shorter than Corey's) was the best choice of my life. It's liberating. And if I want to do boy-things, your judgemental looks won't stop me. I couldn't care less what others think about me, I'm the one who hates myself the most, no one can hurt me more than I hurt myself.

If Dylan can love Corey, someone out there might be able to love me? So give me more stories like Corey and Dylan. Maybe that will cure me.