I think he was refering to how Ogata first said that being in love is when you get shy around your crush and try to hide it (about vol. 8 ch. 34) and he's saying how his love might be different than love because he can't even hide it... (Dunno its just my opinion tbh)
Wtf do you mean it might be different than love? He just made their grey area relationship even grayer . Anyways, can’t wait till next chapter...