Guys i fucking cant anymore even tho im so fucking done with this i have no choice but to keep living like this i constantly live in my fantasy its my comfortzone but everytime i have to think about myself in reality i just want to cry i keep scrolling through youtuve instagram and google and live my life through ppl but irl im in my room with no friends,family and my mom has changed she was always very religious including me but she became INCREDIBLY religious like she tells me i should come more out of my room and hang out with her but everytime i do that she keeps watching the world ending and bible stories and constantly tells me not to interupt her and ik never doing anything good enough for her and i cant eat delicious food i only have one bra that i have kept wearing for 2 years and she constantly tells me how “nice” my life is, i got bullied at school so i couldnt befriend ppl since my reputation went down the drain and now that im done with school idk what to do with my life idk where i see myself in the future other than go to work and eat but im very miserable and lonely and idk man the boredom is too much this feels like torture
I'm so sorry to hear that, I don't know your living condition so I can't be much of help, but maybe your mother thinks you're doing fine in your own way like that, because i feel like that's also how my mother views me (She thinks I'm old enough to know better/know what I'm doing). But if it's becoming unbearable you should really talk to her. If you try to talk with her wholeheartedly she should listen and respond. No matter what you're still her daughter after all.
So, are we basically addicted to porn?