i have so many feelings so i'm just gonna dump it here

Midnitea August 8, 2020 11:50 am

i knew some people don't like this ending... but what will happen if they part ways anyway? dohyun will only back to his old self-- he, who was selfish and empty. we can see that he lived his life meaninglessly. he didn't even have close friends or relatives. he also sucked at relationships. so much that even when he was missing for two whole months, no one realized, except for that shitty manager who didn't even report him.

we can't deny that the happiest moments in his life were the ones that he spent with sungho. he was so selfish that he did forget about it for reasons. and it might be-- it /is/ obsession, from sungho. but we can't also deny that sungho is pretty much the only person who actually needs his existence. the only person who accepts him as he is, the only person who treated him like he-- exists.

so yeah, even if stockholm syndrome has a part here, i think we can't blame it all on that.

the part where dohyun shivered from cold and he remembered sungho. he called it a small fraction of enjoyable times -- and that was actually when he 'pretended' to accept sungho. so at that point, before i get to the ending, i couldn't help but wonder, what if, what if he doesn't have to pretend? what will happen if there's a way or possibility where he can accept sungho for real?

on the other hand, sungho realized that he's still capable of hurting dohyun, and he regretted what he did to dohyun. but he also realized that things can not be undone. he got hurt by dohyun in the past-- and now dohyun got hurt by him as well.

when he said that he wished for dohyun's happiness, i think, if dohyun said that his happiness is anything but sungho-- he'd be gone for real. yes, it could be love, or obsession or something, or all in between. but it is the same thing that will drive him away from dohyun for good if that means dohyun can live his life-- preferably happy without him.

but he stayed, he stayed, probably because dohyun asked him to stay.

some part of me still can't forgive all the pain that sungho put to dohyun,
but i'm happy that they are together, with flaws and all.

because while there's no promise that they won't mess up, at least they are trying, they chose to be together and put behind their tangled, unimaginably painful past, in order to start over. to give it-- to give /them/ a chance. and that's enough. that's enough for now.

and that's why this ending is beautiful for me.

Responses
    VolcanoFan1 August 8, 2020 2:53 pm

    There's really tons of stuff they can learn & do together, for its' own sake & knowing each other better. Also, thanks for your time to express thoughts on everything, it resonated with some of my own :)

    yumeko August 9, 2020 12:27 am
    There's really tons of stuff they can learn & do together, for its' own sake & knowing each other better. Also, thanks for your time to express thoughts on everything, it resonated with some of my own :... VolcanoFan1

    being in a relationship with your abuser and rapist sure doesn’t make things any better luv

    Midnitea August 9, 2020 1:59 am
    being in a relationship with your abuser and rapist sure doesn’t make things any better luv yumeko

    If you don't like the ending you don't have to piggyback on other people's comment. It's uninvited that people will have different takes on the ending. Take it or leave it, it's that simple.

    Midnitea August 9, 2020 2:04 am
    There's really tons of stuff they can learn & do together, for its' own sake & knowing each other better. Also, thanks for your time to express thoughts on everything, it resonated with some of my own :... VolcanoFan1

    Yeah, by compromising and stick together they are opening endless paths and possibilities. It will not be all rainbows, and we can not know for sure, but at least they are trying. Thank you for replying as well!