Guess I am okay.
I'm 18 years and 7 months old.
Taciturn and secretive.
Sorta got bullied by 4 guys I rejected. Within the span of 6 months of a very important year I needed to ace.
Told my bestie about it and she ratted me out and left me in even bigger trouble.
I had one person to vent it out to but he got himself a girlfriend and got really busy.
Nobody to share now.
All in all I'd just advise not to internalize it but kinda make productive peace with it. Bottling had a terrible effect on me but now I can face a lot of things with a somewhat normal reaction. Not a great intro to adulthood for you but you sound like you can handle it If need be, vent it out in a journal, on a forum, or any activity you like. Eventually the process makes you an advocate for the future. ٩(๑❛ᴗ❛๑)۶ I send you good growth vibes. Your choice can increase ya!
It's normal to cry when you have pent up stress and cannot vent it out otherwise.
I often find myself in situations I'm too scared to share which are stressful and require the remedy of change in behaviour. For example, on my eighteenth birthday, some guy shoved his knee between my legs while we all were standing in a packed crowd during graduation photograph. I never knew who did it and I never defended myself. This made me very stressed, because I couldn't stand for myself when I should've. There have been endless times when random strangers had made obscene expressions at me ever since I was 10 years old! I'm a very austere person and always have been. But I never shared this with anyone I know. And here I am finally venting it out when I know none of you will be reading this.
I used to cry at times remembering this. And it did help reduce my stress.