Why would you be ashamed? lmao, that's how game developers get paid.
Well, because if I pay it's like I admit my defeat to the game. It's like I don't want to struggle first and I just depend everything to my money. It's like I taking a shortcut to the welfare of my game account. And I do sometimes pay to get my hands on thing. But I used my hard earning free tokens first before I do use the premium guarantee UR on something. And it feels like cheating if I use money to often and it's not good for myself too so I used this mindset to limit my spending on my hobby and for the well being of myself.
I'm a whale myself. and I'm ashamed every times I draw something with money ╥﹏╥
F2P IS THE WAY TO GO! THE GAME WITH THE SYSTEM P2W IS TRASH!!!!! AAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAH!!!!