I am sure the other person wants to be friends with you even now, just tell him what your feelings are, there is only one life dont waste something that could make you both happy because you are scared, you can do it!!! And also you are not a jerk it is normal to feel like that and if you dont use that website anymore you can use others which you use more often, anyway good luck and be brave.
Thank you :( I lost contact with him because I don't have my phone anymore... I don't know any other socials he has, so I might have to suck it up and go to the website.
Well, everyone has been talking about how much of a jerk they were to their ex's. I know you guys didn't ask for this...But I just really felt like telling people of my mistakes. I met a guy on the internet, he was funny and we fit each other like a puzzle. After that, we became best friends. It lasted for maybe...Hm...4 years? After 2 years in the friendship, I began asking about my sexuality, I got worried and thought about my other feelings too. What do I feel with my online best friend? Do I love him? Do I want to date him? And so I mustered up and told him that I liked him. He cleared things out that we should just be friends, and I was fine with that. And we continued 2 more years of our friendship but in those 2 years...Our friendship slowly started to wither. I got anxious, not sure if I really do like him. And so I thought "Oh if I pretend to leave the site, how will he react?". And so I did that and...I couldn't live without him and he seemed pretty bummed up. I lasted for a month and started chatting with him again...And now...I uh...Got bored of the site and just visit there occasionally. We don't talk anymore because I told him that my friend is using my account now, but in reality, if my account is online, it's always me. I looked back and read our messages and realized that I missed him so much. And just not too long ago, I got myself clear, that I never even liked him. I just loved him too much as a best friend. Anyway, I wish I can tell him of how much of a big jerk I am, sorry for ending our friendship. Now, I just have to get over this. Sorry if this was cringy, I hope you guys tell me your thoughts on what I have done because I really don't know if I can get over this.