I’m still raw after watching the anime and reading Garden of Light. I need some time to heal before I can pick up where I left off in the manga. I thought people were just overreacting when they said Banana Fish will change you somehow but they really weren’t. Ash’s story broke a piece of my soul. I shed countless tears as I watched him almost lose himself in the war against Dino and Arthur and by the end of it, I just felt numb. I wished that I could take away all of Ash’s pain and it still hurts me that I couldn’t. Ash fought so hard and he deserved so much more from the world but I guess dying was the only way to truly set him free from his demons. Garden of Light provided me with the closure that I needed. I know Eiji will always be broken and perhaps he will never be able to love anyone the same way that he loved Ash. But like he said, he can be broken yet still be happy at the same time. I think that when Ash died, he took away half of Eiji’s heart with him but it’s clear now that Eiji is slowly healing. And I believe they will meet again someday maybe in a different life or a different universe. But I know they will.
SPOILER ALERT
I’m still raw after watching the anime and reading Garden of Light. I need some time to heal before I can pick up where I left off in the manga. I thought people were just overreacting when they said Banana Fish will change you somehow but they really weren’t. Ash’s story broke a piece of my soul. I shed countless tears as I watched him almost lose himself in the war against Dino and Arthur and by the end of it, I just felt numb. I wished that I could take away all of Ash’s pain and it still hurts me that I couldn’t. Ash fought so hard and he deserved so much more from the world but I guess dying was the only way to truly set him free from his demons. Garden of Light provided me with the closure that I needed. I know Eiji will always be broken and perhaps he will never be able to love anyone the same way that he loved Ash. But like he said, he can be broken yet still be happy at the same time. I think that when Ash died, he took away half of Eiji’s heart with him but it’s clear now that Eiji is slowly healing. And I believe they will meet again someday maybe in a different life or a different universe. But I know they will.