I think that you are awesome and you shouldn’t compare yourself to others because there is always smarter.
Here’s my favorite yaois most of them are going to be explicit,
http://www.mangago.zone/home/mangalist/716168/
I experienced it too for almost 2 years now already and its getting worse but still my friends really did encourage me to open my self more and be more sociable and explore outside cause i somewhat become isolated due to not opening sns's accounts an not being updated to things I don't even open my phone or charge it I just vent all my time reading mangas, novels and reading things related to my profession. But worry not about your study just make time and see for your self the thing that should be and should you do.. beacues we do have anxieties, troubles and wories but we evetually gonna surpas it and move forward... and by the way I just graduated as a nursing student this year with those baggage i had and I'm preparing for NLE board examination even tho I myself know that im not smart, inteleggebt and whatnot but I MYSELF WILL MOVE ON AND WILL GO ON WITH LIFE...
but of corses with my beloved mangas especially my bois(〜￣△￣)〜 ╮(￣▽￣)╭
Dude same feelin down too the whole month i been continuing studies ive been left out..they just made a new gc without me and been lefting me out whenever they hv chance,it seriously not a day passed i think without suicidal..i isolated myself maybe also becoz im new there im not familiar with them people u know im just shy..but they just straight out saying im snob and anti social and i hate it they cant be more understanding...i had no friends at that time...i glad that i get out of that hell slightly..im healin from this kind of experience..
(Just wanted to vent here since I have no one to talk to lmao)
I've been feeling down for the past few months because of my insecurities and anxieties in university. Mostly because I feel inferior compared to my peers who are far more intelligent and capable than I am. Because of that, I've unintentionally isolated myself away from my friends instead of approaching them for help. This led me to just home by myself, eat alone, and not participate in our friend group chats. Now I had no one to talk to which made it worse for me. Basically, it's all my fault for pushing them away. Though lately, I've been feeling a lot better, but now with no one to talk to. And whenever I read our gc, I have no other way but to feel left out lmao. BUT ANYWAYS!!! Can y'all please recommend me some good yaoi (very smutty ;D)/fantasy/romance webtoons! ლ(´ڡ`ლ)