She did those things bc she was experimenting to see if it was actually real or just a dream.
Which is weird logic because if it wasn't a dream she would have died and effectively done what she didn't want
I remember back in my days, you just gave yourself a pinch or a slap to the cheek. (￣∇￣")
On the bright side, possibly due to the poison she can excuse her forgetting the language (speaking & writing) of current world
So you're telling me she tried to jump out of a window and willingly poisoned herself but "she doesn't want to die"?
Yea, that makes sense