I'm really sorry that happened to you and no one surely doesn't deserve it, if she doesn't want to hear you out and at the moment you're not able to move out then, the only advice I'm able to give you (talking from experience), you should suck it up and only think about how you will leave this situation and think of the great things you'll do
You don't have to be sorry, okey? Sometimes the right thing to do it's just to let It out, even if it's with some people you don't know in internet . It does not really matter how but let it go or it will just get to you.
I'm sorry that you felt scared due to this person peeking on you and that your mom couldn't get you to feel more protected. Here I can just suggest to you that you may try to talk to her again, telling her how you felt about her way of reacting. As for the man... Please always make sure not to change in front of open window, use the courtains. I know it was your backyard but nowadays you never know. It could be by accident but it might be that there is someone - like in this case - and you just are not aware of it.
Always use the courtains if you are doing something you don't feel comfortable that others see.
My room was also facing the backyard and I always made sure to close the curtains if I was changing or if I was going to sleep as someone could have been in the garden for whatever reason (invited or not, it does not really matter) :)
Fighting!
Stay strong dear.
You're not alone!
yes.. I will :') thank you <3
Thank you T_T It's been bothering me for days and the image of the guy's eyes peeking through the window still scares me. I'm always anxious when I change and a small sound makes me flinch. It's the first time I experienced it and I was shaking and crying from fright. When I saw my mom's reaction, I realized that I can't depend on her on situations like these. It's my first time talking about this and I'm glad I did. Thank you <3 I feel better now that I said it. <3
Thank you~ <3 <3 <3
Yep, when you have a dream but you're parents are not supportive about it. Mostly if it's an artistic dream. I just can't help but feel pessimistic if they're like that. I mean my mother was an artist before, by that I mean fashion designing and make-up, my father was a photographer, but their business wasn't giving a lot of money so they had to drop their "dreams". I honestly don't want to end like that, I want to be an author myself, but when they told my brother not to end up like me when I got depressed and anxious and dropped out of school. Really, I don't want to end up living just to work and earn money to eat. I want to live and to give meaning and fun to my boring life, I want to be an existentialist but I can't help feeling nihilistic most of the time. Not to mention the cult I belong is suffocating me, I can't even say my feelings about it because there's an atheist discrimination here, and if you say that they'll say your a demon's child or something. My grandparents are both fanatics too and they're lives are just both pathetic since they didn't even try to change anything or lift their misery, they just kept on praying to God, living because they aren't dead yet.
Reality just doesn't work your way, and I shouldn't be idealistic, but I shouldn't be pessmistic either. They're stigma on mental illness has been lifted and they don't say any hurting words to me, when I said that I want to kill myself to my grandma, she just said that I should be put into a mental hospital with all those crazy people in there. But she's kind now and so are my parents.
I'm glad your parents got to know how to handle you and your mental health. I guess it's just the generation gap. As younger people, we want to achieve something as well but adults are too practical and want long term plans. I'd say that you should give your dream a try. There's nothing wrong with just giving it a try. You can make art your sideline, and when you receive lots of offers with good deals, you can go full time! That way, you won't take too much risk. What matters the most, is that we also enjoy what we're doing. If we just work to make a living, it's gonna take toll on our mental health as well because working would become unbearable. I wish you all the luck! I hope you and your family stay strong <3
Happy to hear so, stay strong!
When Haesoo said that to his mom on the phone, I felt really sad for Haesoo.
I'd feel sad and a burden as well if they did that to me. There are also times where I want my parents to leave me be. I really wanna move out cause everything I do is wrong to them. All the efforts I make goes down the drain. My mom thinks of me as a bad person she won't even hear me out.
Last week, I cried in front of her saying that a man was peeking through my window while I was changing. She said it's alright and that she knows the man and he probably was just passing by to get fruits from our backyard. like SRSLY?!!?!?! PEEKING! HE WAS PEEKING!!! I cried more after that and was FULLY DISAPPOINTED AT MY MOM. I expected her to go berserk because she's a Karen and she fights them employees but she was oddly calm in that situation. I'm sorry. It's quarantine, and I'm always by myself and I don't have any friends to tell. Sorry.