So that's what it is! I was wondering why I felt kind of odd reading the sex scene, but now that I've read your comment, I actually realized that that's what I felt! XD I was like, "Hey, this story's good! SO MANY EMOTIONS! I CRI!!!" but then, after the sex scene I was like, "Eh...meh...uhh, why don't I feel happy..."
Exactlyyyyy! I don’t usually pay much attention to it since it’s a characteristic of yaoi and all, plus it can really add to a story and make it meaningful. But for this particular story, it was just so out of place based on the pace it was going. That’s what made it really disappointing. I don’t say take out the smut scene completely, just give it a little more time to develop and grow, yknow? We can wait. The story’s a masterpiece after all
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I was gonna give this to 5 stars but retracted it back to 4.5 stars after the first sex scene. (Hold on before you get triggered). Right after the freckin discovery (that akira was not mamoru). It would have been better to make this manga a bit longer instead of jumping straight to sex. Like, u just escaped from the illusion that he isn’t a brother but actually a stranger that’s been living with u this whole time, and ur going to suddenly kiss and have sex with him? Without any reservations? This would have been a heck of a lot better if that part was better paced. That’s the thing that almost ruined what was otherwise a masterpiece of a story.
The dark emotions and deep trauma in this were really well portrayed. Even I shed some tears. Their characters and backgrounds were so well developed, and the story was just so very well written man. When kaoru finally accepted his brother’s death (particularly the scene where he put out the incense and pictures) I was so moved I even shed some tears bro. Plus seeing akira’s past and his shit mother hurt my kokoro.
This story is amazing and well written in so many ways, that’s why I was so disappointed by that sudden sex scene that came out of nowhere. It’s like it was put there just for the sake of making this a yaoi manga instead of a shounen ai tragedy slice of life. It wouldn’t have been so out of place if it happened a few chapters later, after kaoru had a little more time to accept reality and who was in front of him (akira). Anyways, I’ll still give it 4 stars since it was such an amazing story. This easily makes it to my list of favorites.