Hey guys, I want a yaoi where the uke really suffers hahaha you know, something like being...

scarlet

Both seme and uke had their emotional traumatizing experience during childhood:
http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/cut/

lol the "hahaha" makes it a bit sadistic.. well heres one where the uke suffer more psychologically but still a good read.

http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/kowarekake_no_omocha/

if you want real suffering, how about reading SAKURA GARI?
http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/sakura_gari/

recipe

http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/if_you_hate_me_that_much/

hes a cute small boy who happens to witness a tall idiot that mastrub. to his teacher sleeping and gets caught . so the tall idiot keeps raping and hurting him to jot tell it while the cute boy just feels helpless and sad because he has no friends either and thats falling for the tall idiot, he tries to hate the tall idiot but he cant no matter how much he gets hurt .
its sad to see how the boy is breaking and no one is realy there to help him.