just a vent, sorry

Poopy Momster June 13, 2020 5:17 am

i need some advice. i feel like i keep getting heavier and heavier and that i’ll become even more overweight and no one will love me if i don’t look desirable and skinny, i’ve been working out and eating differently for a while but i don’t see a change, i’m wearing stuff that used to fit fine, and they are tight. im too embarrassed to go out in public because of the way i look, and i shit on myself whenever i gain confidence because i don’t think i deserve to be confident with the way i look. (tw) i’ve been clean from cutting for about a month, i’m trying to hard not to cut because i don’t want to have more ugly scars and bc when i cut i always need to think about someone accidentally seeing it or it hurting when i move too much and i can’t have fun. i just always beat myself up and compare myself to other people and i just don’t think i have a healthy lifestyle right now, and it really makes me sad too because i’m only 15 and i dont want to live my life bringing myself down and worrying about the way i look rather than just being able to be happy and enjoy life. i don’t even remeber the last time i enjoyed life, i’ve been self aware and comparing myself to others since i was in third grade. but basically i just want to feel happy and content with who i am. if anyone was in a similar situation as me or could help, i want advice on what can i do to be happy. and i’m sorry, i know this isn’t really the platform for this but i don’t have anywhere else to go. also so i don’t get restricted, what’s you guys favorite manga/anime?

Responses
    yumiko June 13, 2020 5:32 am
    This reply will be showed after approved! ✿chaldea✿

    chaldea giving serious talk has me 00

    yumiko June 13, 2020 5:34 am

    and stop comparing yourself! youre amazing just the way you are and it shouldnt bring yourself down!

    YaoiEz June 13, 2020 5:36 am

    Are you sure you are doing the right things and not losing weight or is it your perception? It might be helpful to get a physician’s opinion on this because it seems that it is really affecting your life. There are conditions that can make it difficult for you to lose weight even if you are doing all the right things (like thyroid issues).

    P.S - great job staying away from the cutting, you’re more beautiful than you give yourself credit for. Everyone has insecurities but it takes courage to voice out your concern in order to make a change. You are courageous so believe in yourself.

    the surprised pikachu June 13, 2020 5:37 am

    its okay fam i too experince some think like that and i hope you get better with time and don't push your self too hard okay you can get through this and i hope my encouragement can help you a litte bit and i too am a fat potato and just like you i am self conscience about myself and as of right now i try not think about it and try to live my life so don't give up just yet okay and my favorite manga is Mairimashita! Iruma-kun and my all time favorite theres actually tree of them ouran highschool host club and Kamisama Kiss and maid sama i hope you watch or read some of them there are my all time favorite

    Twatus:1 June 13, 2020 5:38 am

    Hey, I know how it feels not wanting to continue living and trying so hard to push through it. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL HUN. Being skinny does not equal beauty! Also about the cutting, if you feel like doing it place ice on the stop where you use to cut. This is recommended by a lot of therapist. You can get sticky notes and write something you like about yourself then place them on a mirror. You matter and I know this may not be super important but you will be missed if gone. Keep working towards your goals, and also being clean from cutting for month is a bIG accomplishment. I also recommend Hyung, your my Idol if you want to feel a lil better since it's pretty cute and does things you don't see often. (▰˘◡˘▰) STaY StRONg!!!!!!!

    z4tan June 13, 2020 5:40 am

    hello, we all have our own insecurities but your weight doesn’t define you nor does it make you any less attractive. honestly this sounds like it won’t work but do positive affirmations. every time you feel ugly tell yourself you are beautiful, every single negative thing you say replace it with something positive . this worked for me so it might work for you but it will take a while. remember that you are beautiful and also I recommend spirit fingers it was the manhwa that made me want to love myself :)

    GoldenScale June 13, 2020 5:43 am

    I've been into kusuriya no hitorigoto lately. ;)

    I did not experience your situation, but know that you deserve to be loved regardless of your appearance and feeling self-conscious is totally normal.

    Building self confidence takes a while, but you should start by taking care of some personality traits you would want to improve since confidence comes from the inside.

    Of course, you can still continue to diet while doing so if you want to. I'm no expert, but you can start by restricting junk food and soda to weekends only.
    There are more strict diets, but they're pretty hard to follow, and a healthy one will still take a few months to work. Give it some time.

    Also, know that you're allowed to reach out for help if you find it hard to accept yourself. Mental health is as important as physical health.

    Good luck with everything. <3

    vihu June 13, 2020 5:48 am

    I like drifters

    Brik June 13, 2020 5:54 am

    I’m afraid your overworking with yourself. It’s important to have rest days to let your muscles rebuild so you can go back at it in full strength (I suggest 2 days of rest). You are a strong and brave individual. It doesn’t really matter what you look like but if you have goals I hope you achieve them. Also don’t compare yourself, especially not with those models or actors in tv, not With your friends or those people on Instagram. Photos online especially are modified and enhanced to look better. Photoshop is so powerful that ordinary people can be turned into models. I wish you the best, keep fighting on, I’ll cheer you on, you have a beautiful soul and remember that.

    Fullmoontoni June 13, 2020 6:16 am

    At 15 most of us were getting chubby because the hormones went crazy. It s a phase of life that will pass. There will be many versions of you and your body every year that will pass. Focus on improving yourself step by step and not especially on losing weight. Every thing you do, ask yourself 'is this good for me?'. Please learn to be kind to yourself! Your physical body will get you through sooooo many obstacles and many more things will come your way. Surround yourself with real women that know the fun of being woman and feeling like one. Look in the mirror and imagine all of the things your body will make. You need to make it stronger GURL!

    Poopy Momster June 13, 2020 11:37 am
    This reply will be showed after approved! ✿chaldea✿

    thank you, this made me laugh :))

    Poopy Momster June 13, 2020 11:39 am
    I’m afraid your overworking with yourself. It’s important to have rest days to let your muscles rebuild so you can go back at it in full strength (I suggest 2 days of rest). You are a strong and brave indiv... Brik

    thank you :)

    Poopy Momster June 13, 2020 11:41 am
    Are you sure you are doing the right things and not losing weight or is it your perception? It might be helpful to get a physician’s opinion on this because it seems that it is really affecting your life. The... YaoiEz

    thank you so much

    Poopy Momster June 13, 2020 11:43 am
    its okay fam i too experince some think like that and i hope you get better with time and don't push your self too hard okay you can get through this and i hope my encouragement can help you a litte bit and i t... the surprised pikachu

    :)) iwatched all of those but kamisama kiss, so i’ll give it a try :)

    Poopy Momster June 13, 2020 11:45 am
    Hey, I know how it feels not wanting to continue living and trying so hard to push through it. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL HUN. Being skinny does not equal beauty! Also about the cutting, if you feel like doing it place ... Twatus:1

    haha, thank you, i’ll try that :’)

    Poopy Momster June 13, 2020 11:46 am
    At 15 most of us were getting chubby because the hormones went crazy. It s a phase of life that will pass. There will be many versions of you and your body every year that will pass. Focus on improving yourself... Fullmoontoni

    thank you

    the surprised pikachu June 13, 2020 12:51 pm
    :)) iwatched all of those but kamisama kiss, so i’ll give it a try :) Poopy Momster

    that's great that you watch some of them already but you should really watch kami sama kiss oh and i forgot to add one more so here it Special A its an anime/manga so you can pick if you to read or watch it

    the surprised pikachu June 13, 2020 12:55 pm
    :)) iwatched all of those but kamisama kiss, so i’ll give it a try :) Poopy Momster

    that's great that you watch some of them already but should really watch kamisama kiss oh yeah i forgot to add one more anime its really good and i hope you watch it too its name is Special A give it a try you will like it

    Poopy Momster June 13, 2020 1:01 pm

    thank you all for your responses/ advice :)

    ThatGayChicken June 13, 2020 1:06 pm

    I didn’t read this, but it’s technically manga related, so it’s good . And your username is 11/10