Do you have discord? Just email my mangago account... I'm pretty bad at giving advice. But if you just need to talk and just vent it all out. I'm can listen. I won't judge you and nor will I belittle you. You may be wondering "Why are you saying this? Why do you want to listen to me?" Well, I know how it feels. When you feel this emptiness and you feel like it can never close up. You feel like you're alive just because. There's no reason no purpose.. You're just alive. I know how that feels...I had no one I could talk to about it for the longest time and even when I did...I was just told "What you're going through is nothing compared to others". So dm me if you would like it's completely up to you.
Anyone here sucidal??