Just curios, is there any people like that sensei dude?

I used to say whatever I thought no matter the occasion. My mom had to come up with a secret sign to let me know to shut up. Slowly I learned to be more careful but now it’s the opposite. I don’t say anything real. (Except with a couple of ppl). I can chit chat but it’s not real at all. But I do let my actual thoughts out occasionally , but then I’m like I prob said to much. Like they asked a question about anal sex but was it actually appropriate to tell them all the deets about my experience with butt sex. I think I’ve disillusioned many. It’s hard to find that balance between uptight or being my actual self. I once met a girl worse then me though. She was a real
Train wreck.

Straight forward about everything, I mean EVERYTHING ya know but then I think the sensei is kinda dense, idk maybe