Sorry might as well just rant coz no body knows me.

Hey. I was gonna comment the exact same thing. I'm studying motion graphics and doing 3D too. It's really hard to not be insecure and jealousy especially when surrounded by talented people. You get burnt out fast. I feel you. Don't know what to say to make you feel better because i'm in the same situation but hang in there buddy.

I get what you are saying. As a student, I used to be quite comfortable with the idea that I am the best one around in my school but when I went out and started participating more outside the school I would be hit by the reality that there are plenty who are better than me. Hard work sounds nice. I like working hard I don't mind that piece of advice but what troubles me is that some people seem to have the 'it' factor in them. You know? One might even call it talent. I always questioned myself if talent really was a thing. Like are they born with it if so isn't that unfair. Stories of inspiration just frustrate me because it makes me feel worthless and helpless since jo matter how much effort I put in just because I don't have the 'talent' pisses me off. I don't want to be treated as the secondary and even if I do manage to bag the first place the pressure and anxiety to keep holding on to it never leaves me. Basically, as long as I care about all this I will never be at ease.

Heeey...labelling at all is a pain in the ass because somehow we're expected to continue to maintain the relationship be it 'parents,' 'friends', 'colleagues' etc...so it's okay to rant to strangers because you dont have to worry about pressing forward a relationship with them...


Also, comparing..yeah..you're right. It happens...and it's freaking amazing that you're at least going around in circles comparing and telling yourself to not compare. That shows you're strong.

We just cant help it. Sometimes, others have a headstart. I remember watching a video about people standing in staring in lines for an athletics competition but everyone is asked to step forward if they had a particular privilege like having two parents, being rich etc...

That's just like us. Another person might be better than us but that's also because they had a particular which we did not have. But just imagine. Someone exactly like us. Make a clone of yourself. Then, ask yourself. Have I done enough with what I've got? You'd be pretty fucking pleased to know you have. Can I do more? Yes. You can cause you're bloody brilliant and you're not gonna waste time moping. Na-ah. You're gonna go impress yourself with how amazing you are even though your starting line was much further than a lot of other people...

My field is completely different (languages) but I sure as hell know the feeling. Here where I'm studying the competition is high and we are always pressured.

I was raised with the mindset that I just HAD to be the best. I worked to the point of sickness but I kept being the best until university. I was so obsessed with it that I saw even my friend as possible competition. When I first started my university a year and a half ago I found out that there were people extremely talented and spent a whole year in a slump, feeling like I wasn't enough. My years of hard work were thrown out of the window whereas others had the talent and the experience.

I know the burden and sometimes you just have to let it all out. Sometimes you have to escape, but the important thing is: you have to return, stronger than before. In life there will always be someone more talented than you are, but this doesn't mean you are worthless. Value your strong points and NEVER feel like you are not enough because that is just not true. As for your friends, if they neglect you, ditch them. You need no negativity in your life, only keep around people that cherish you as they should.

Keep the good work, life does get better. * sends virtual hugs*

BTW, that "ciao" at the end. R u Italian too? X)

Whoa, didnt expect to get many replies. Hold on lol

Wow thats cool! Mograph and 3d. Im in concept art and studied 3d a bit. How do u know u have burnt out? Somehow i felt guilty being in this situation but i srsly dont feel doing anything. I once dreamt of being really angry that i woke up while still feeling angry. Thats a weird sensation.. And thanks for the encouragement. I hope things work out well for u too

Somehow i kept thinking abt "the subtle art of not giving a fck" Book. And sadhguru youtube channel. I assume u r still a student. The one thing i regret back then was, i expect something when i do things and it hit me hard after graduation because i didnt get what i wanted. I wish i didnt expect anything from the start. Its easy to say, but at least i should've expected the worst to happen so i'll feel better at least.

But hey no hard work is useless. Persistence is the key that some talented ppl might not even do it persistently. If want to expect then expect the obstacle will come your way so you'll be more than ready later on.

Damn, yknow how ppl giving advice is actually an advice to themselves as well? Thanks for sharing mate.
Take a breather, Burnt out is fine, just dont fade away.

Damn, i usually hate it when ppl tell me im strong so im gonna be fine. And they made light of it. But i was fine with the way u stated it and u pointed out to me why u thought of that. Means a lot, thank you :)

I was burning like fire at the beginning, i can tell i gave more than 100% to everything. Eventually i fell apart, grew tired and rewarded by losing. I felt angry and all sort of emotions. I thought i was over it. But it came back to my dreams. I was encouraged by my family it shudve made me feel better. I felt better. But then it came back again.

Have u ever feel like, u know how to solve ur problem, but u r having an argument within urself and it gave u headache so eventually u gave up? But then u'll get better and then will start another cycle? Its funny since my friends sometimes came up to me to seek advices and so on but here i am. Struggling with my own shit and im getting tired of this.

But trully thank you for all ur kind words. And yeah its important to look at ourselves in a different perspective (as in looking at our clone).
Uh... I'll blabber more at this rate lol
Thank you rly kind stranger :))

You did great! And to overcome it in a way is amazing.

Thank you for the kind words :")
At this point i think im the negativity instead of my friends LOL but whenever im in a negative state i stay away from everything, literally gone missing.

/hugs back

Oh r u italian?
Im not x'D i was interested in it when i was a kid. First foreign language book i bought. Thats the only word i remember now. Its a long time ago LOL and maybe "come sta" Hehe xD

"Take a breather, Burnt out is fine, just dont fade away"
that's the best thing anyone has ever told me. Thanks a lot for your words and advice (≧∀≦)

It's when you keep doing things but don't get the result you expect. The stress makes you mentally exhausted and robs you all of your motivation. It happened to me a few months ago when i was working on my final project. I was under a lot of pressure bc of financial and family issues. One day i just got shut down. I can't explain it. Like you're aware of it but can't help feeling in a certain way. It's the worst.