Awww Absolutely incredible!!!!

Is the author gay??? It's like they got all the points 10/10!!!!! Especially that fear of liking guys.... That's actually a 100points for me.

Like, I also have a fear of liking guys who likes girls... of course, in reality, being "I'm only gay for you." is an absolute fantasy, so I don't go for straights at all... (even though a lot of gay guys actually tries it at some point)... what I fear is the Bisexuals... I don't know about other places, but where I live, being Bi is superbly common, or, it's more like, "they like girls, but hide that they also like guys." and that's where my prejudice towards Bis started... I understand that they, and I mean those people where I live, can't or scared to be open about it because of society's norms, but, that doesn't mean I don't get hurt whenever they hide it...

I even had one guy who I "hang out" with where I asked him if he ever had any intentions of dating... Lemme tell you this first, he was really kind and we really got along especially since our interest were superbly alike... and given our relationship, I thought he would make it official, once he gets the courage. even if he doesn't shout it to everyone, I would have been ok with it as long as he doesn't outright hide or deny it. I understand how scary it is to come out after all.

But when I asked if he has any interest in dating guys, he said he didn't and that he would marry a girl someday... I asked, then, are you gonna stop doing it with guys? He said no, he'll just do it behind closed doors... I was both appalled at how easy it is for him to say he'll cheat on his wife to be, and hurt that I started liking someone like him...

There was also that one husband of my cousin that she caught cheating... with a guy... on their very bed....

That's why, in my mind, it has stuck that, it might be impossible for them to be loyal to guys...