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No he didn’t get turned on by the people talking about him, he was afraid because they were going to take pictures. And also he’s not a masochist he’s just in an abusive relationship. He expects to be hit because that’s what he’s used to, he’s normalized it for himself. There’s a difference between a consensual masochistic relationship and an abusive relationship.
I think he got turned on by those guys being disgusted at him. Even the first time he kissed the seme it was like he did it expecting to be abused, to be berated or even struck, to be punished for being gay. He can't be in a relationship because that would mean that what he was was capable of being loved and accepted rather than used and thrown away like garbage.