So to makes himself feel better he made things look worse than they really were?
He didn't allowed himself to have hope. That's how things started. He died a little every day in those 10 years
He didn't allow himself to hope? He literally did nothing. Everyone is at fault but Haesoo is depressed.
And what now? My first comment says everything I want to convey.
I don't see connection in always seeing himself as a victim with being depressed. Most depressed people see themselves as the one who hurt the others not the other way around.
Depression has many faces
What I like is that Haesoos narrations do not always match with the truth. This shows us how dark and depressed his view became and how much he must have lied to himself to be able to breath or be able to live with a situation