Im sorry to hear that. I dropped the manga because it was too heartbreaking ^^' But I do hope that your anxiety doesn't interfere with future relationships. I mean im also single since the day i was born so i understand to be anxious over something new. But i hope that if you find the right person that you wont miss the opportunity. Just listen to your close friends and give them a chance to be 100% honest. Your friends only want the best for you and dont want you to get hurt. So if they recommend to be careful or even drop that person take it to heart so that you dont get into such trashy relationships which we sometimes see in mangas ^^
I hope you overcome your sadness and anxiety (๑•ㅂ•)و✧
I think its the first time I actually want a character go and die or get into a miserable accident... I just detest him. At least with most charcters they are not complete assholes so you hate them but not enough to actually wanna see them in a scene like kanekis toture scene. but dude this yougha or whatever. I would watch his toture scene while eating popcorn because I cant wait...