asexual, traumatized or jumping to conclusions?

imapotatoe January 29, 2020 10:21 pm

ok so im a 17 years old female and idk like ive been thinking about my sexuality for quite some time now and for as long as i can remember i have identified as heterosexual,but lately ive been thinking that i dont 100% feel like that. so ive stumbled across the term asexuality. i never had a proper relationship (it doesnt count when youre 10 and all you did was text lmao) and im a virgin. i do have crushes but very rarely, especially in the past year i have had one teeny tiny crush on a guy for like a few weeks and that was it. and i do like physical affection but i feel like i dont want to have sex. but on the other hand i do get turned on by porn and masturbate.
so idk maybe i am traumatized by a past sexual assault by someone i trusted.
but maybe that's too much to assume since i have never actually TRIED it ? am i jumping to conclusions??? am i traumatized?? am i asexual??
share your thoughts if you want to :)

Responses
    Cloudy January 29, 2020 10:25 pm

    Maybe you’re demisexual?? I don’t really like labels since there are so many and they’re confusing, but demisexual just means you don’t feel attraction or lust for anyone unless you’ve formed a bond

    ThatGayChicken January 29, 2020 10:29 pm

    Sexuality is confusing.
    Gender is confusing.
    People are annoying.

    imapotatoe January 29, 2020 10:35 pm
    Sexuality is confusing.Gender is confusing.People are annoying. ThatGayChicken

    100% agreed

    Aviolus January 29, 2020 10:54 pm

    asexual if you cant get turned on is how it be

    oh look, a queer- January 29, 2020 11:54 pm
    Sexuality is confusing.Gender is confusing.People are annoying. ThatGayChicken

    Ukes die naked.

    January 30, 2020 12:33 am

    Asexual is when you aren't sexually attracted to any gender. So you can't (with anyone regardless of gender) get turned on. I feel you're more pansexual or demisexual from what you just explained.

    veedacted January 30, 2020 1:35 am

    Hm, you may be gray aromantic or gray asexual or both. Aroaces on any spectrum can still masturbate, read/watch/see sexual things, and have crushes on others. It really depends on the person. So if you have a feeling that you might be aro/ace, then go ahead. Be aro/ace.