man shit’s hard. I hope you get better. If this has been going on for that long you should get your body and especially brain checked. (I’m sorry if you already did or something but that’s really important) (I’m sure you’re already aware of that. I wish you that nothing is permanently damaged.) sending digital hugs and blessings :)
Never got diagnosed with anything but i really relate to those memory issues. My friends and I just make fun of it though its hilarious.
Though obviously its not always funny. Ive forgotten the experiences that made me *me*, so i constantly feel like im imitating myself. I wish i could remember the precious moments my friends shared with me because when they reminisce i cant join them. Just the tip of the iceberg for these issues but im sure you already know all this
I thought about it too.
I remember when I was in a very bad condition I forgot what is name of a stick. Something so simple as stick.
Also, even now, writing it, I am not very sure about my English cause I am not a native. And even I've tried hard to learn it, I am still lacking.
I am hoping that you will stop the demage that your illness is doing in your brain. I've got the same, now during my studies I See how much I've lost because of depression. At this moment I think it's just sad, but it made me angry while I tried to recall some thinghs at therapy. I practically erased most of my memories before I tried to commit a suicide.
I am sorry that I am writing that much about myself, but I have a good news for you - after two mental homes and 4 years of theraphy (trust me, mental hospital isn't obligatory, i just liked them ╮(￣▽￣)╭) i see a lot of progres, I remember now more and even recall some of memories. And most important - I am trying to make new memories that I will remember in years. Also thinghs from manhwas like that ٩(๑❛ᴗ❛๑)۶
Thank you for all the replies. I haven't gotten it checked out but I should really get to that. I've been feeling better for about 2 years now so. I've been through therapy, clinics and am taking Antidepressants. I wish it was the same for me that after 4 months something recovered, but sadly that isn't the case. I also absolutely get the memories with friends part. It's basically all gone after a week. Or I mix up when and with who I had a certain experience. I'm sorry that this is an issue for people who are going through depression and other mental illnesses or who have recovered, but I'm also happy that I'm not alone with this.
That's just brain fog, which sadly in some cases can be permanent like for me, but it's not on par with damage to the brain, there's not enough research yet to prove stuff like that. Glad you found ways to help the fog get better though, I also went from being able to easily get high grades to not being able to focus in class or even make homework and it really sucks when you blame yourself for "causing" this to happen. Good for you for having good friends swell that don't mind repeating information! (๑•ㅂ•)و✧
Do not apologize, you are a fighter!
And if you are studying for nurse is because you care about people and that's super cool!!
Big hugs!! (づ￣ ³￣)づ
I didn’t know that depression could lead to brain damage and memory loss, but it explains a lot about me. I’m not as old as you guys(probably) so I haven’t had the same amount of damage(probably). But when someone is explaining something or giving directions even when I pay close attention, the minute they stop talking I forget everything they said and I really can’t place a date on most of memories from the time my depression “started” to when it “subsided”. Everything then is a blur when it comes to time, it could’ve happened 4 years ago but i would remember it as 1 year or another amount of time or not remember it at all and need it to be explained in order to recall it
I can seriously identify with Heejae omg
I've had depression since I was 13-14 (am 21 now) and depression when untreated for a long time can cause damage to the brain as in you can't remember stuff as easily and you space out a lot and you need longer to process information. I was diagnosed with 16 and therapy helped when I was 17. I used to be a good student and school was a lot of fun for me. But now I have so much trouble remembering things, my current friends have known me for about 1.5 years and they repeat stuff for me or when they talked about something in our group with me there as well they'll call out my name and tell me straight to my face what's planned for the weekend and so on. So I absolutely get it. I'm currently learning to be a nurse and I'm not a bad student but also not very good. I feel quite frustrated at the thought of how much I've lost because of this illness. So people when you think something might be up, even though it's hard, try and get help asap. I wish I had been diagnosed earlier. Maybe then I would remember more.
Sorry for the long text I just wanted to get this off my chest