Lee ren had a high attachment towards seme,as he was the only one who treated him like a normal human being,but his feelings for him were more like that of an older bro/family and not as a love interest,that's why he felt so humiliated when seme saw him hav sex and his self-hate increases,and he felt he was not worth the seme going through all those troubles for him as seme has a bright future and the gap betwn them is too high and lee ren had already learned to accept his life,but more than that,he doesn't want seme to do those things that seme's father has done to him his whole life,as he clearly saw him as a family,to him it was like his own older bro raped him and when seme said that "I don't want anything that my father bought" he forgot that lee ren was also bought by his father and lee ren felt more and more like an object that could be trade around and the thing that hurt him most was that the one he highly admired and cherish did the same things that others hav done to him, I'm prob the only one who likes this lol, and I like the fact that they don't romanticise the rape here and it also felt real,there are lots of people who bear the pain all by themselves and don't really know how to communicate or share their pain with others,unless they extremely trust them, and the seme here has already broken that
Lee ren had a high attachment towards seme,as he was the only one who treated him like a normal human being,but his feelings for him were more like that of an older bro/family and not as a love interest,that's why he felt so humiliated when seme saw him hav sex and his self-hate increases,and he felt he was not worth the seme going through all those troubles for him as seme has a bright future and the gap betwn them is too high and lee ren had already learned to accept his life,but more than that,he doesn't want seme to do those things that seme's father has done to him his whole life,as he clearly saw him as a family,to him it was like his own older bro raped him and when seme said that "I don't want anything that my father bought" he forgot that lee ren was also bought by his father and lee ren felt more and more like an object that could be trade around and the thing that hurt him most was that the one he highly admired and cherish did the same things that others hav done to him, I'm prob the only one who likes this lol, and I like the fact that they don't romanticise the rape here and it also felt real,there are lots of people who bear the pain all by themselves and don't really know how to communicate or share their pain with others,unless they extremely trust them, and the seme here has already broken that