Sexuality

kikifrancis September 25, 2019 2:51 am

Umm hey guys. So since high school, I’ve been subtly in love with girls. I’m a girl myself. I’ve confessed to one in the ten grade. Along with this I’m Jamaican, i come from a very conservative homophobic country, despite that it has a small LGBTQ+ community (that’s not the point). (The point is that) i think i may be bisexual but every time i try to say it from my heart or take it serious, i get scared. My family is very homophobic and I’m scared of them cutting me off but I've been holding my heart for so long. It almost the same as talking about mental health as a black person. Furthermore, i get flustered when i talk to girls; sometime i want to tell one how beautiful they look but I don’t want the twenty questions. I also have a Japanese friend that i like a lot that I’ll go to any extent for but i think tell her my feelings because her customs are no different from mine. Every time i hear my mom say “you need a boyfriend” or “why don’t you get a boyfriend?” I having this feeling of pure distaste and resent toward what it already is and what it could be if i come out per se. now guys, what should i do? This is the only place i could come to let off some steam.

Responses
    TrulyAGoldExperience September 25, 2019 3:11 am

    I'm a lesbian and I live in a very small and ignorant town, so I can understand. While it's nice to encourage people to be themselves, you gotta look out for yourself. Don't feel like you need to come out to be proud of who you are. If it's not safe for you, just don't. But, never let them scare you into denying your truths, don't let them make you scared of yourself. They might be the majority in small towns like ours, but they're still wrong. Remember that, and everything else should come (or not) when you feel it's right. Good luck!

    kikifrancis September 25, 2019 3:27 am
    I'm a lesbian and I live in a very small and ignorant town, so I can understand. While it's nice to encourage people to be themselves, you gotta look out for yourself. Don't feel like you need to come out to be... TrulyAGoldExperience

    Thank you love. I needed that ☹ It has been weighing on my mind for a while now