Mega oof

Read the latest chapter first before reading my comment:
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I knew that this was gonna happen, I already knew that they were gonna end up liking each other. What I didn’t expect was that it would be the female lead to start having some “heart thumps” first. That and how it happened so soon lol, I was literally just thinking, maybe they’ll have more time just thinking of each other as friends, but oop- I just finished reading and I was cut off too soon. I’m also shocked about the fact that he let down his facade, I really didn’t think he would do that. I thought their friendship would continue on, his facade still up in front of other girls, but eventually they would grow to like each other and get all jelly and stuff. My heart hurts now :c for some reason I dislike it more that he let down his facade to a chick who confessed to him and “only” wanted to be friends, it’s like that feeling of wanting to be special only. Tsk tsk just great. Anyways I relate to her somehow, though I’ve never gotten in any of those situations as her, but more like how she doesn’t want a relationship. I feel like I could like someone as much as I want, but would never want to date them, because maintaining a relationship is too much work and the thought of it is too stressful. And if I had someone I liked, I’m sure I would be able to move on or forget, because I know myself best, with time I’d definitely get over any crush.