it hit me so hard

my biggest darkest fear is being alone
I have aspergers and issues with maintaining friendships plus social interactions are a daily struggle for me; because of that my biggest pain is loneliness
after hearing about eriru's past and sora confronting him all eriru could find the strength to say was a simple and heart wrenching "...I'm lonely" and that legitimately made me find myself shedding actual tears it hit me SO hard
it's even worse than other "lonely" characters in manga since most of them could actually technically speaking make friends or find a lover but eriru couldn’t do any of those, even if he did it would require him to reveal his true identity and not only that he would pretty much outlive all his new precious people HE REALLY WAS COMPLETELY ALONE IN THE WORLD