well said!
My thoughts excatly
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I would totally agree with you, except for that small snippet in the last chapter.In his most vulnerable subconscious state of being, he kept repeating bum's name. Think about it, when you're hurting, you'd take the name of the person you care about the most, and want them to comfort you.
That may be possible and is an interesting perspective. I saw that moment and thought a reason for Sangwoo calling Bum's name may be due to the fact Bum finally acted out against him with Seungbae in the house during Sangwoo's most desperate moment. In a previous chapter, Sangwoo said, "I win" thinking he had a victory against outsmarting and taking out Seungbae including having complete dominance over Bum. So at that final climatic moment, for Bum not to kill Seungbae and come to Sangwoo's aid that was a spoiling moment for Sangwoo's ego and he felt betrayal.
I believe Sangwoo was calling out to Bum in way to express his betrayal with what Bum had done which reflected the same pain his mother inflicted upon Sangwoo for betraying the trust a mother and son should've had.
I knew Sangwoo was heterosexual throughout the course of the story. I feel like some of the fans want a reason to say that Sangwoo loved Bum because he had sex and enjoyed it with him. However, in the case of Sangwoo’s psyche, he only carried out a physical relationship because he couldn’t escape the trauma of his mother’s sexual abuse. He took advantage of Bum’s legitimate love for him to appease his own twisted thoughts and as a commenter previously said, a hole is a hole to Sangwoo.
As readers, we can’t romanticize Sangwoo and Bum’s relationship and implant irrational reasons pertaining to love for the main characters. Sangwoo was a sick individual with horrible trauma that he was never able to recover from. To an extent, Bum was a victim of that trauma and the cycle of abuse sometimes is known to never end. ╥﹏╥