Just curious

My parents also suffered from sucky parents and decided to just pass their bad parenting to me.
They justify beating me with a broom-stick/sandal by saying they came out fine when my grandparents would punish them but I can say for sure that I am not fine after getting relentlessly yelled and beaten at and I honest to god hope that if I ever have children I wont repeat the same mistakes my parents did. (￣w￣|||)

Loll my parents justify their beatings by saying it’s the Asian way of disciplining. Ah yes I got beat so bad I got bruises

Probably? Cause my guardian dont talk much with me but talks a lot to her daughters. It feels like Im being rejected. We live at the same house thou but I dont feel at home at all. (=・ω・=).
From what I notice she have favoritism. Her daughters share to me that they dont feel appreciated. Its like they are just there to provide financial stability. She doesnt understand that anxiety and depression are real and when you tell her your problems its gonna be "your fault because you dont have enough faith"
Maybe because of generation gap or culture. ╮(￣▽￣)╭
Shes not a bad person thou she doesn't treat me cruelly.

My mom isn't like that......tho she would spank me a few times back when I was a child, if I did something bad.....but we're often just goofing around.....
I think its cause people have different perspectives and beliefs...that's why they do the things they do.........

That's exactly the point with me. My parents have really different perspective than mine and I understand that completely. But they don't even try to understand what I am going through or it seems like they don't want to. But I still love them well u know there is no replacement for them. But still it hurts so bad I am literally mentally exhausted. But one thing for sure I won't let my children suffer like that. I am taking it as a great life experience.

Yep yep
But try to talk to them sometimes...and open up a bit...maybe they will come to understand

my sister used to do self harm and when my mom found out the first thing she tried to make my sis feel bad for it and told her that it would ruin her reputation if other people saw

asian parents have high expectations of their kids which can fuck you up if you don't reach /their/ standards. They care more about how their reputation looks rather than how their kids are feeling mentally/physically. The whole "mental illness is a phase" is really REALLY harmful and damaging as it makes you ashamed and less likely to talk about your issues.

I tried and I always end up in tears in the process and they still don't understand so what should I do?

They say I am just creating scene for no reason and get angrier instead which makes me more vulnerable. It's affecting my studies as well and there is no one around me which I can talk to that's why I decided to post this. Now I became very sensitive to other people emotions which makes it more worse in one way.

honestly when they hit me with "you're such an ungrateful child" when i had a grade lower than 80 when i was really pressured cause i was part of the sections where its just full of honor students (first time this happened too) i was just sad like really sad since they didnt even try to encourage me and just talk shit about my efforts i actually cried for 2 days since they called me a lot of slurs so i had a sudden realization to just not take to heart their hurtful words so that made me feel better and i stopped listening to their bs and unrealistic expectations of me so i did better because honestly its just better to do what youre able to do now and improve it as you go instead of forcing yourself to do something that's out of your reach with your current abilities

Well I think I have to wait more. Thanks to all people who replied and shared their stories I think I am not alone. I will try my bestest to.become an independent and strong woman. Though it sucks being a girl but I like it this way.